woah, it feels like my childhood is slowing coming to an end. finally! i’m off into the big wide world on my own. i ain’t gonna lie, i’m scared but i got whatever i need. :)

people think stupid things, do stupid things - and for what? for love.

some people don’t wanna do this/that etc for the person they love. but its important to know what makes you happy. it’s okay to be selfish once in a while to be selfish to fight for what you believe in & whats more important; what makes you happy.

some people even hurt the ones they “love” - both emotionally and physically. why?

i just don’t understand… and if anything, it always happens to the nicest people out there.

i feel that you’re losing me bit by bit by the things you do, & i hope it hurts you just as much as you’re hurting me. ive seriously have had enough of me fighting for you cos ive abandoned the things that were once important to me. ive had it with your mood swings, & your bullshit. im supposed to be the one you love? if we decide to go our seperate ways.. good. whatever makes me fall always makes me strong again.

me: what if i dyed my hair bright red like rihanna?

him: .. hmmm, i would give you a bottle of JD, get you drunk then point and laugh “HAHAHA! its a tomato!”

it’s been time since ive blogged. i’ve been busy: studying, working, chilling.. no time for blogging (n).

i hope it goes okay - this time apart is meant to calm things down before we approach each other again. i want it to be okay, otherwise i wouldnt have asked for this time away from you. you mean too much to me, and i care alot about you & i want this to work. please let it be okay.

felt like you werent first choice? i have. felt like you werent important? i have. felt unwanted? i have. felt ugly? i have. felt like you were only needed when it suited them? i have. felt unstable? i have.

its a way of life. we all feel this & alot more insecuritiea - but the thing that makes us different from one another is how we deal with it.